6 days ago marks 1 year and 7 months on testosterone. I think next month will be 1 year on injections.
Acne continues to clear up. I did have a few break-outs last week because I caved and started eating dairy again. Now I know for certain that dairy triggers my acne. So much for cottage cheese.
Last weekend I had two over-night shifts in a row. I am definitely never doing that again. It has taken me a week to recover from that. I used to be able to pull all nighters no problem but this time around it pushed me into a mild depression. I wasn’t so much ruminating on depressive thoughts but more so experiencing the physical symptoms. I had no appetite, stomach issues, and I had severe insomnia. All around I just felt out of balance and as if my chi was blocked.
My fitness goals are continuing to be reached. It’s a burst of dopamine each week that I lift heavier than the week before. My weight has fluctuated, but I think that’s because of the over-night shifts. This should even out soon.
On my days off I spent time reading, and going for walks. I went on a very interesting walk a couple days ago that really broke me out of my funk.
There’s something mysterious about this particular campground. There’s a strong vibe of energy emanating from the area.
On this outing I stumbled upon some strangeness.
This was all near a hidden secret structure. I sense that the whole area is a place were people come to mediate or do whatever ‘magic’ work they want to do.
Being out in nature was exactly what I needed to shake me out of that funk. I felt balanced again. A little serendipity to break up the monotony of life can be good medicine.
I asked a pagan friend of mine about the structure and he said that he knew about it being there but has no idea who built it or who else uses it. It’s a nice place to go to relax or meditate. I definitely plan to go more, and investigate the story behind it.
After that mini adventure my appetite came back and I’m able to sleep again.
A couple nights ago I had a small cook out in the driveway which was very peaceful but it gives me the itch to go camping soon.
At work last night I got to use the grill. I made baby-back ribs out of pork loin.
Good news! I got a call back from the place I applied to last month–the place that said they would keep me on file. I have a job interview on Tuesday for that full time position. I really hope to get it. I haven’t told my current job anything yet because I want to be sure I have a job lined up before I put in any notice. This move is coming so fast that it’s a little overwhelming. It will be nice to make more money and be able to actually save up. After I’m all settled in after the move I plan on going on a much needed solitary camping excursion. I feel a strong calling to hike and camp this summer and I may just have to heed that call of the wild!
Until next time,